Friday, September 23, 2011

Beta Day

Moved my beta up to today, as it was scheduled for 7am tomorrow. I already knew it was going to be negative, why wake up extra early just to find that out? This way I get to sleep in tomorrow.

As thought, it was BFN. HCG was 0.3. Wow...they didn't take at all. My E2 was over 800 and my P4 was 19, so I know those were both good levels. I know my body pretty well - and I felt NOTHING. I didn't even waste my last pee stick!

So...that's it..onto...I don't know what. Do I stay locally and try a cycle with the local team? do I go down to NYC where they have much better success rates (but I would need to use FMLA because I can't make that commute during stims?) I don't know. I am done for at least the next month though. My 33rd birthday is coming up in a few weeks and I might as well be drinking and eating sushi during it. I'll continue to work on my weight loss (now down over 11 lbs in the last month, thank you Jenny Craig), and somehow figure it out.

I said a little prayer for my embies...off to join everyone else. Momma loves you.
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11 comments:

  1. E and RSeptember 23, 2011 at 12:21 PM

    So sorry to read this. Thinking of you and praying for you and your embies!

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  2. RebeccaSeptember 23, 2011 at 2:52 PM

    (Hugs) I am so sorry, my heart just breaks for you. If it were me, I'd look at switching to the clinic in NYC with higher success rates. Congrats on the weight loss, I know how hard it is to lose weight while undergoing the stress of infertility and treatments. I hope you are able to enjoy your 33rd birthday before the chaos begins again.

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  3. AnotherDreamerSeptember 23, 2011 at 9:44 PM

    So sorry (*hugs*) Thinking of you as you figure things out and make new plans.

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  4. St ElsewhereSeptember 24, 2011 at 2:55 PM

    Very very sorry. I am also sorry about all the babies you have lost. It must be so heartbreaking.

    Please take care.

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  5. TippySeptember 24, 2011 at 6:01 PM

    Stopping by from ICLW (#19). I'm sorry for your BFN :-( ((hugs))). HOpe a month off gives you a little peace and some time to figure out your next steps. It's always hard to not know what your next steps are, but it will become clear to you with time. Enjoy your sushi and wine/beer/drinks and good luck with your next steps.

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  6. KateSeptember 24, 2011 at 11:29 PM

    Hello from ICLW. So sorry about your BFN. I know how heartbreaking they are, even when you know before you know. I do hope you enjoy your birthday. It might be just what you need to rest and revitalize yourself.
    Take care of yourself.

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  7. MicheleSeptember 25, 2011 at 10:17 AM

    I'm sorry to hear this. I hope you and your husband can come to a decision that works for you.

    Congrats on the weight loss and enjoy your sushi and beer, I know they make me feel better.

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  8. AnonymousSeptember 25, 2011 at 6:36 PM

    I'm so very sorry. Sending you huge virtual hugs!

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  9. DeborahSeptember 26, 2011 at 4:39 PM

    Here from ICLW - so sorry to hear the FET didn't work. I think it is good you're taking time off to enjoy your birthday, though. It's so important to make that time for yourself. Enjoy!

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  10. SarahSeptember 26, 2011 at 11:56 PM

    I am so sorry (((HUGS)))

    Make sure you spoil yourself for your upcoming birthday!!

    Happy ICLW
    #27

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  11. AnonymousSeptember 28, 2011 at 11:45 AM

    I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself, enjoy your birthday, and breathe. Hugs!

    Hi from ICLW.

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