Another ICLW

Well, here we are - another ICLW is upon us!

Leonard (L - not his real name) and I have been married for almost 5 years (gulp!) and have been trying for almost 4. I've gotten pregnant 4 times, including once with twins, and miscarried each time. We started the adoption process last year and are currently in waiting limbo. At the same time I just started a surrogacy cycle with my gestational surrogate I have affectionately named Gabby on this blog. I started lupron on Saturday and stims won't start till next week. We are so hoping something comes through for us very soon!

For a more detailed look at our journey, you can check out the tabs at the top of my page.

For right now I'm just trying to be patient and not worry - which for me is nearly impossible. My latest stress is coming over whether we will get a call from the adoption agency while we're in the middle of this cycle. I don't want to have to turn them down - we haven't turned down one opportunity so far (there have been 5 I think) and don't want to miss my chance. For once I'm just hoping and praying we don't hear from the adoption agency until late June! (Never have I said THAT before!) But the worst that could happen is we say no to the agency, then our cycle fails and we have no adoption and no surrogacy happening. That would be my luck.

Gabby has been keeping in great touch - she continues to make me laugh so much. Her latest email is that she checked out the PIO she will be taken after transfer and thought it was hilarious that the oil is olive oil.

"It is actually olive oil, says right on it! I'll save any extra so we can
whip up some pancakes in a crunch!"

I need that positivity and humor in my life! :)