Monday, August 20, 2012

Paralyzing

Gabby is having more bleeding. I don't even know how long this has been going on or how much from her words.

I have had bleeding and everytime I rush upstairs and check for the heartbeats. I'm actually going to call (MFM doctor) today to ask him how likely it is that it's the placenta of the third fetus breaking down...(more stuff)....What happens is that I have bleeding, usually when I go to the bathroom, then it trickles down and it's just spotting on the paper for the remainder of the day. On those days I take it really easy and try not to move around a lot.

Days? What the hell? She just had a u/s on Thursday? She texted me Saturday night with a belly bump picture and didn't mention any bleeding? What is going on?

She did listen and find a heartbeat on the doppler today, but that's it, stick a fork in me, I'm done. I can't do this for even one more week, let alone 24 more. I can't concentrate on anything else, I can't think, all I want to do is cry. I asked her to please let me know if she had anymore bleeding. I knwo she doesn't want to worry me but I don't want to worry about whether she's telling me stuff or holding back. And I DEFINITELY don't want to be thinking everything is good and get surprised by bad news.

I can't handle this stress. I'm not kidding. I'm going to have a breakdown.

12 comments:

  1. You are going through so much and I am sorry. From all the research I have done, it seems that bleeding is more common with ivf and even more common with multiples. I hope this gets easier for you and the babies continue to grow strong so they can meet their mommy :)

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  2. I am so sorry. Praying for you, Gabby and your little ones. *hugs*

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  3. Oh my, I can't even imagine. You are in my thoughts.

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  4. Is she being seen by someone? It seems to me that this needs monitoring and checking out. I hope it is just the third placenta and that all is fine. Thinking of you.

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  5. She needs to get in for an ultrasound... that's so nerve wrecking! I'm so sorry she's been holding that back and that there's bleeding... I know with SR bleeding can be normal, but she still needs another check. That's so scary. I'm so sorry this is happening, and how stressful it is. (*hugs*) Continuing the positive thoughts, hoping for you.

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  6. Be the squeaky wheel. No one will advocate for you, L and Gabby the way you can. Get the ultrasound and make sure she is being monitored. There is too much at stake to risk otherwise.

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  7. I'm so sorry you are going through this...I can't even imagine how stressful, especially since you are not in control of the body it is happening in. Hopefully she is being well monitored and everything is fine. Thinking of you!

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  8. Oh, no. This has to be so scary for you. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. I'm praying for you and your babies. Praying very hard!

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  9. With multiples, bleeding can be very common, something like up to 1/3! It sounds like it's not gushing and she's not passing clots, so that's reassuring somewhat. It's an awfully stressful situation though, feeling so out of control of what will happen-- and the surprise of it too, but making yourself sick and crazy isn't going to help Gabby or the babies. Try to find your inner momma bear! Wishing the best for you and your family.

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  10. cant imagine whats its like to be in your shoes, every positive vibe I have sending your way. I hope all is well. So sorry, hugs

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  11. Oh boy, that sounds super stressful!! Praying and hoping for a good answer from the Dr. that will rest your fears (although I know that's not REALLY possible... if you're anything like me, you'd worry no matter what!).

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  12. I'm so sorry for all of this stress you have to go through! Praying for those babies and that they remain strong and healthy and that you are able to keep your sanity.

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