Saturday, July 21, 2012

ICLW again

Here we are, another month of ICLW starting.

Welcome to my blog, which lately is an often-wrote, whiny, bitch-about-my-family-and-generally-act-like-a-small-child place where I come to pour out my feelings. I certainly can't tell anyone about them :)

Up until this past month, we've been following along two paths in the road to finally (we're on our 4th year now) become parents. We are homestudy approved for adoption and are working with a semi-local (it's at least in the state, though 5 hours away from us) agency, and we recently matched with a gestational carrier and did a cycle in May/June. At the end of June, we found out our gestational carrier (I often call her our surrogate, though she is carrying my husband and I's genetic material) was pregnant, and a couple of weeks ago, learned at the first ultrasound that there were three heartbeats! Next week is the second ultrasound and I am just praying there aren't zero.

We've had 5 losses previously, including twins, so we aren't taking anything for granted. Now that I'm not the one pregnant, I'm definitely writing more because I don't have much else to do (take vitamins, or meds, etc.) It's definitely a weird position to be in, but one I will GLADLY be in for 9 months if only it means we can have a baby at the end of it.

This means that if we have a successful u/s next week, we will be letting the adoption agency that we can no longer be profiled for any opportunities that come up. It's a scary thought, especially since anything still can happen with the gestational carrier pregnancy, but it's also what we need to do.

In the meantime, we're just sitting here, waiting, hoping and praying everything works out well for once, just once!

32 comments:

  1. Hi from ICLW...my fingers are crossed for you! Looking forward to following your journey :)

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  2. Congratulations on those 3 heartbeats! It is so exciting when people have good news to share. I am hoping all is well at the next ultrasound. Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my blog. I look forward to reading more of yours. Happy ICLW.

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  3. Congratulations! I'm sorry you had to read my story and I hope you aren't too discouraged by it. I look forward to reading more of your journey and if I can be of any help please feel free to ask me anything. Good luck!
    http://alwayswishhopethinkpray.blogspot.com/

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    1. You are such a strong woman and it was a story that needs to be read, even though I can only imagine how hard it was to write. I admire you very much. Thank you!

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  4. yay iclw! what days the u/s? think about you and those three lil bubz all the time :)

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    1. It's Tuesday. Commence freak out! Thank you!

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  5. What does ICLW stand for? I'm fairly new to the blogging world. :)
    I am thinking of you lots with your upcoming ultrasound!

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    1. Thank you!

      It's International Comment Leaving Week! It's one week every month (the 21st through the 28th) where IF blogs find each other and leave comments. You can meet new IF bloggers and they can meet you!

      Click on the blue box in the top right of my blog to check out this month's list. You can sign up for next month's list after this month's closes. (Around 7/29).

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  6. Wow it sounds like you have had quite the roller coaster ride! can't wait to follow your journey and good luck on upcoming u/s.

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  7. Thanks fro stopping by my blog. Glad our story offered you some hope, but SO thrilled for you about such a great first ultra sound, wishing you every blessing for the future and beautiful heartbeats at your next one!! Congrats!!

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  8. Thanks for taking a look at my blog today and commenting. Wow -- three heartbeats -- how exciting. I look forward to reading more of your story!

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  9. Been thinking about you and that ultrasound next week! Happy ICLW :)

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  10. Holy cow! Triplets!! Fingers crossed for 3 strong heartbeats next ultrasound!!!

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    1. Thanks! Please keep them crossed :)

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  11. That is wonderful news! Congrats. Although I realize that it's still very early and you're probably terribly nervous to allow yourself to be happy, there is much to be happy about. In 9 months you could go from 0 babies to more than you can carry in two arms!

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    1. Ahh, just thinking about that makes me so happy. I'm so hoping that is true!

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  12. You continue to be in my thoughts. Sending hugs to you!

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    1. Thanks Patience! You're in my thoughts too!

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  13. Wow!!!! Thanks for visiting and leaving some kind words!!!

    And again, WOW! I know that you won't breathe for a long time...( I always say my last worry will be my last breath!) but hope and pray that you are able to enjoy as much as you can of this amazing time while knowing that your life's experience will certainly color your outlook on everything. Only natural...and not many understand because, hey, it's all better now, right? You have three coming! Don't worry about anything.

    Yeah, right...you'll worry! So again, my hope is your worry is overshadowed by the incredible joy and excitement this must all bring!

    Best, best, best wishes!

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  14. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I'm so happy to hear about those three heartbeats and I'll be hoping and praying and crossing fingers that they're all still beating strong at the next u/s. I'm wishing you the best! It sounds like you've been down an incredibly difficult road and I'd say it's now time for you to get your take-home baby (or babies), don't you think? I look forward to following your journey!

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  15. I hope that everything goes well next week! I haven't caught up on your journey yet, but it sounds like you've been through a lot to get here. Congratulations!

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  16. Hello from ICLW!

    Good luck with the u/s (and making it to that date without losing your sanity if possible)

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  17. Greetings from ICLW! Three heartbeats! Wow - I will keep my fingers crossed that they continue to be there, strong at work, at the next ultrasound. Wishing you lots of luck as you move forward!

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  18. Thanks for stopping by my blog the other day! And wow! Triplets! I know it has to be exciting and probably a little overwhelming all at once. I really hope that the next u/s and the whole rest of the pregnancy are perfect for you and the carrier! `ICLW#61

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  19. Here via ICLW and catching up on your story! Congrats on the pregnancy with your gestational carrier and three heartbeats! Sending thoughts and prayers your way for a healthy pregnancy and delivery.

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