Last night I got an email from Gabby that made me really worry. She said she'd had more brown discharge and had been really crampy, though the cramps had gotten better. I just don't have a good feeling about this. It really made me depressed and I cried most of the rest of the night.
I'm so worried no heartbeat(s) will show on the U/S today. Even though it's still early, they should probably show up by now, so if they don't it probably does not mean good things. And now, I don't know, I feel like even if things look ok today, I'm not convinced they will stay that way for long.
I miss my babies so much. The ones from last year, and the ones she is (hopefully) holding now. I just want one of my own to love, in person. I've been working towards this for so long, with nothing to show for it. I just want this to work one time.
I am quite the mess waiting for today's ultrasound. The foreboding is driving me nuts.
I can't imagine how scary this is. sending you many positive thoughts. x
ReplyDeleteWhat a horrible feeling. I hope we hear great news from you later...
ReplyDeleteCramping early pregnancy is normal, and many, many people go spot with no ill effects. Nonetheless, I completely understand how alarming it is. Its also so, so hard NOT to be afraid when its YOUR child involved. Praying its all good news from this point on!
ReplyDeleteI know this is scary for you (*HUGS*) Hoping so much for good news, and holding you all in my thoughts.
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